change

as this school year comes to a close and summer is just around the corner people begin to realize that things are changing. not only are the seasons changing but lives are changing. people are moving away and some might not even be coming back. people are graduating and are starting a whole new chapter of life. people are getting married which is an adventure in itself. people are getting summer jobs. the world around us is changing and in an instant you are going to look back and wonder where the time went.
"there comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who wont anymore and who always will. don't worry about the people from your past there is a reason they didn't make it to your future."

morning

these song lyrics have been stuck in my head all morning, "though the sorrow my last for the night HIS joy comes in the morning! im trading my sorrows, im trading my pain, im laying them down for the joy of the LORD!" lately things have been tough and hard and not going how i want them to go. the nights can seem so long and i feel alone but when i wake up i have this new found joy that just comes out of no where. i wake up singing worship songs that are stuck in my head and i think that you GOD for everything that you are. thank you GOD for everything you are doing in my life and are going to continue to do.

why

why is it that when something seems to be going wrong, everything seems to be going wrong? you feel like you can not do anything right, everyone is mad or upset with you, when you think that you have finally resolved one problem something else comes up and you feel like no matter what you do or say the situation always gets worse.
right now i feel that way. finals are coming up so i am stressing out about final projects and papers, working five days a week is killer, juggling a crazy schedule is a job in itself and dealing with people mad at you just is the icing on the cake. it is in these times when i have to really think that GOD has a perfect plan for me and my life. it is in these times when i have to remember that i am here for HIM and for HIS kingdom and this life on earth is nothing and does not matter to what life is going to be like in heaven. there will be no more crying and no more tears and i can not wait to be there.

marriage

you know how when you are a little girl and you watch all the disney movies about the princesses falling in love with their prince charming and living happily ever after? i was thinking about it the other day, do you think that GOD put one person on earth for everyone so you have to find them or is there many different people HE put on earth for you and any of them would be a perfect match for you? because if you think about it, if there is only one person GOD would have to bring you together which i have no doubt in my mind that HE would not but what if there are many? i do not know the answer to that question but it is neat to think about. personally i believe that there is one person for everyone and in GOD'S timing HE will bring them together. i heard this quote once, "i have to believe in fairy tales and i have to believe in love!"

trust

have you ever asked anyone if they trusted easily and they say no i have trust issues? well if you have asked me six months ago i would have said the same thing. "i have trust issues, i do not let people in easily, and i put up a front to make everything seem fine." why do we do that? why do we as humans have trust issues? because we have been hurt by people or they have let us down? we should not think about how other people can and will hurt us but think about how our HEAVENLY FATHER will never leave us or forsake us. HE is always with us no matter what we have done or what we are going to do. learn to put your trust in HIM and not of things or people of this world. "trust in the LORD with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding. in all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will make your path straight."

books

lately i have found myself infatuated with reading. the books by Danielle Steel come alive every time i flip the page. she writes stories of young people who have loved and lost, women with miscarriages, young girls being abused and all the while tying a in a love story somehow. her words and descriptions make me feel like i am there with the characters as they go through their life. in the good times and the bad. i sit on my bed and cry sometimes as i am reading at what is happening to the characters i have come to love. books have been my escape and my go to when i need a break from things. Danielle Steel is an amazing author and i encourage everyone to read one of her books.

surrender

surrender: to give up.
as CHRIST followers we are all called to surrender everything to GOD. everything we are, everything we have and everything that we hope to be. we are to give it all up to JESUS. we are to live like HE lived, love like HE loves and be an example to the darkened world. recently i have learned that surrender might be easy to say but not easy to do. but when you do finally surrender everything and truly mean it with your whole heart, GOD will bless you. there has been so many things in my life that when i reflect on things that happen and things that just worked out so perfectly it could not have been anything else but GOD. chance and fate could not have made things in my life happen the way that they did and when i ponder them it is mind blowing that GOD cares so much to make sure that the things in my life run perfectly. HE is the ultimate and when you finally decide to completely surrender, your life will never be the same.