who am i...

lately i have been in awe about how the LORD is so mighty and powerful. i think about how much HE has created and how everything cries out to HIM in wonder. how there is so much GOD has done and yet still HE knows who i am. HE knows my name, HE knows my thoughts. HE knows when i am feeling sad, angry and upset but HE also knows when i am happy, giddy and full of life. i am so amazed and excited that the GOD of the universe still cares about me and still love me even after everything that i have done. HE is just so magnificent, astounding and marvelous as the song says that who am i that HE still loves me. i am so thankful that no matter what i do that my heavenly FATHER still after everything still calls me HIS precious child.

you deserve more

has anyone ever told you that you deserve more? that you deserve to be treated better then the way you are being treated? that you deserve the best? that you deserve all this because your worth it? just recently i have been hearing some version of these questions and i am not used to it. people are telling me i deserve what i am getting, that i deserve to be here, that i deserve the best and to me i find it odd that someone would think that of me. to think that i am worth all the time and effort. to think that i deserve to be treated the way that i am being treated because i am worth it. i have never thought of myself as the kind of girl that deserves to be treated like a princess or deserves being treated like i am worth something great or am valued by someone so much. so as this is all happening i am trying to put the pieces together in my head that i do deserve more.

a pictures worth a thousand words

maybe it is a girl thing but i love taking pictures. i take pictures all the time. i think it has something to do with wanting to remember the moment. being able to look at the pictures and to see a time in my life that i was having fun and was really happy. pictures to me are more then just people on a piece of paper; it is my family from italy i have only seen twice, it is my friends from high school that i never see anymore and my friends from college when after its over i do not know where they will be, its moments with my boyfriend that i just want to remember forever. pictures are memories in my life that i can not get back but i can remember. i love that i can have a photo album of things that have happened im my life full of pictures that are worth a thousand words.

the power of worship

let me start first by saying that worship to me is so much more then just singing songs in the beginning of church. no worship is this intimate time of praising GOD for HIS many blessing that HE has given us. worship is about recognizing the GOD that we serve and what HE has done in your life. i am absolutely in love with worshiping the LORD, it is by far my favorite thing because it constantly reminds me of how insignificant i am and how much of a sinner that i am and still my GOD loves me. still my GOD cares about me and my life. we were singing a song today in chapel and the lyrics are;
"holy, holy, holy, is the LORD GOD almighty, who was and is and is to come. with all creation i sing, praise to the KING of KINGS. YOU are my everything, and i will adore YOU."
this song embodies what JESUS is and i can not help but sing my heart out to the LORD with everything that i have. there are so many amazing worship songs that i never want the worship sets to end. i constantly have worship music stuck in my head but i can not help it, i am in love with the GOD i serve.

trust

trust is a small word. anyone can say it but when it comes to actually trusting whole heartily and believing that the trust you put into it will not let you down in the end is the hardest thing for some people. i struggle with trust issues as well. in some way or another a situation will come up and you will have to make a decision to either trust that GOD has a plan, purpose and will for your life, or you can just run the other way. in provers 3:5 it says "trust in the LORD with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding." GOD is the almighty, the one that we should not be scared of trusting because what HE has started HE will complete. let GOD take over your life today, let HIM take care of you, let HIM guide you, let HIM lay out HIS plan for your life, and most importantly trust HIM with everything because that is the only way to be at peace.

disappointments and let downs. . .

has anyone every disappointed you or let down?? ever say they are going to do something and then does not follow through? i know that that has happened to me before and it has happened often. i will admit that i do not trust very easily and i am working out those issues but when people tell me they are going to do something and then do not get it done on time when i was counting on them or do not do what they said they would do at all; that lets me down. it does not help my progress with trusting someone whole heartily when even the simplest things like, i will be there for you at a certain time, does not even get done at that time. i do not know about anyone else but i know for me this is something that bothers me and really, really disappoints me when it happens. my hope is that disappointments and let downs will never come your way.

arguments

some people would say that confrontation is not their forte; they absolutely dislike arguing with people. and thats okay i know plenty of people like that and some are my good friends. other people just bottle arguments up inside of them and instead of talking them out with people they just keep it and let it well up inside of them until they finally cant take it anymore and they blow up on someone. other people prefer to talk the situation out and just deal with it right away and get it over with. i am a mixture of not liking confrontation and keep things inside and not wanting to talk about it right away and i know that and am working on it. i have come to realize that it is better to just talk through arguments rather then just keep it inside especially with people that are close to you. i know that its going to suck at the time and there might be some raising of voices and some tears but in the end it is worth all the heartache to just resolve the problem and be happy with the people close to you.